I got up late this morning. Had to catch the 8:30 am bus to be in class on time, but missed it, so I had to take the 9:00 am, and walked into class 20 minutes late. I had no clue what the fuck was going on, but I took notes anyway. Smash cut to my next class: we're discussing Joyce's Dubliners. A book about the life and time of people living in Dublin as it applies to the context of the period. It's an interesting read, but I don't like reading.

Well in any case, all my teachers notes from class #1 are posted online, and my grade in class #2 is purely attendance based. So I leave school, take the bus back to my car, and drive to work. I work in a brewery. The work is hard and the pay's not great, but like any one of those CrossFuckers will tell you, it feels good to bust your ass for a few hours every night. So I bust my ass for a few hours, get some money for it, step outside and have a beer. A free beer. You make it, you take it.

I love having a free beer. Ibdidn't work as long as my coworkers, but they know I'm in school, and they're happy to see me. The regulars are there: the gulf war marine, the rich tech guy, the old guy. We talk about other breweries, what they did at work, how my classes are going, etc. All the while drinking this sweet, bitter, delicious ambrosia that's the product of my own effort. But my glass is empty and I wanna go home.

So I get in my car and start driving home. I call my girlfriend and tell her about my day, she tells me about hers. She lives with her parents, and I live with mine. We're both in our mid twenties. It bothers her, I don't really care. She can move out, I'm not quite there yet. It's an expensive place to live. I hear her problems out, get home, and say "I gotta go," and hang up.

I head inside. My Ma made some tasty homemade cheese soup, and I have a bowl. She's a great cook. I go to take a shit, rub one out, and shower off for the day. Get out of the shower, and go study my notes for the day. We're studying Chemical Kinetics; it's a difficult concept to master. However, it's interesting, so I got no problem working my way through the prompts. I've got an exam on Thursday. I'm not worried, I've aced all the practice exams.

I close my laptop, put away my notes, and prep for bed. After my prep, I call my girlfriend. We make plans for the weekend, bullshit about our days, get all lovely dovey for a bit and say goodnight. I stay up for another hour or two putzing around YouTube and Reddit. I really shouldn't, and get better sleep, but I enjoy my ritual. I'll probably be late for the bus again tomorrow.

Excerpt from:

Nihilism r/nihilism - reddit