Why Yom Kippur is one of the happiest days of the year.
A few years ago, I had the privilege of awarding someone a medallion at an AA meeting, a celebration of a significant milestone of sobriety. I am always inspired from being among people who have the courage to admit their addiction, name their enemy, and confront it on a regular basis.
The recovery program is made up of 12 steps, and the meeting I attended addressed Step 8, which is to make a list of all persons we had harmed, and become willing to make amends to them all and Step 9, to make direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
People reflected on the experience of being willing to make amends with people, some whom they hurt and others they were hurt or injured by.Then one person got up and said something I found fascinating.When she arrived at this step in her recovery, she realized one of the people she most needed to make amends with was herself.The mistakes she had made, the excuses, missed opportunities, damaged relationships, sabotaged success she had caused herself, left her needing to be willing to forgive herself, to make amends with herself.
The next person who spoke disagreed and pointed out making it about ourselves is what got us into trouble to begin with. Amends is about others, it doesnt always have to be about the I, and that kind of thinking is misguided and can lead to bad outcomes.
I walked out of the meeting moved by both sides and thinking about this question. Who was right?
The Talmud reconciles two different statements of Reish Lakish. The first: Great is teshuva, repentance, as the penitents intentional sins are counted for him as unwitting transgressions. The second: Great is repentance, as ones intentional sins are counted for him as merits. The Talmud explains the seeming contradiction: When one repents out of love, a higher level of repentance, his sins become like merits, but when one repents out of fear, a lower level, his sins are counted as unwitting transgressions (Yoma 86b).
I understand how the power of teshuva can transform my mistakes, indiscretions, poor judgment, and intentional violations into accidental, careless ones.Picture a judge lightening a sentence because of good behavior and still putting criminal charges on the record, but lesser ones. But what does it mean that my intentional mistakes can become actual merits? How can those mistakes be turned into merits, virtues, assets, acting in ones favor?
Surprisingly, the answer can be derived from sleeping bats.
Many people know that bats sleep upside down but few know the reason. While bats can fly, they cant take off. Some birds can take off from a dead stop by simply flapping their wings, but bats cant. Birds wings are long and feathered and can generate enough thrust to achieve liftoff, but bats wings, as ScienceFriday explains, are basically large, webbed hands. Once airborne, a bat can use these webbed hands to sustain the flight over long distances and steer seamlessly, but they have a problem: they cant do the necessary flapping to take off.
Bats use the momentum from falling to take flight.
So what do bats do if they can fly but cant take off? The answer is they dont take off -- they fall down. During the night, they use their claws to climb up a tree. Once they get high enough off the ground, they drop, using gravity to gain momentum and they use the momentum from falling to take flight.
Perhaps this is the meaning of Talmud quoted above.Not all types of teshuva are equal. If you do teshuva because of fear of punishment, you dont want to suffer the consequence, then your fall can be considered accidental.
But if you do teshuva, not out of fear, but from love, enthusiasm and excitement then you are ready to fly and can use the momentum generated from your fall to give you lift, to take off, to discover things and achieve things you previously couldnt.
For many, Yom Kippur is a dreaded day, not only because of the physical pleasures we are denied but because they think it is a day to beat ourselves up, to rack ourselves with guilt, blame, fault, fear and dread.
Yom Kippur is not a day to beat ourselves up, to knock ourselves further down.
That couldnt be farther from the truth.The Mishna lists Yom Kippur as one of the two happiest days of the year.Yom Kippur is not a day to beat ourselves up, to knock ourselves further down.We are here to confront our mistakes, to think about failures and the times we have fallen, but to use them to give us the momentum, the energy, and the knowledge of how to fly.Your fall turns into your uplift, into flight.
In Steve Jobs Commencement Speech to Stanfords Graduating Class of 2005, he retold his story of getting fired from the company he created at the age of 30. It was the most devastating setback of his life. He fell and he fell fast. Though it could have destroyed him, Jobs explained to the graduates that getting publicly fired turned out to bethe best thing that could have happened to him.
Losing his position and success as the leader of Apple opened him up to express his creativity more freely. He started a company called NeXT, helped launch Pixar, reclaimed his role as CEO of Apple, and the rest is history. Failure opened Steve Jobs up to express himself more freely and forced him to create his way out of his rock bottom into the super-success he enjoyed at Apple. As he explained to the graduates: It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it.
J.K. Rowling has sold more than 500 million books and is one of the wealthiest women in the world, but in a commencement speech of her own she described that she needed to fall before she was able to fly. She described how at the time of her own graduation from college, her greatest fear was failurea fear that became reality seven years later as she struggled through single-parenthood, unemployment, and poverty all at the same time.
Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.
Failure, she said, revealed her true character:I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work that mattered to me I was set free, because my greatest fear had been realized, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.
We make amends with ourselves not by excusing our fall but by transforming it into momentum to give us lift. The world gives us our fill of fear, worry and anxiousness. Lets resolve to change from love and longing, from lift.
We have made mistakes, we have fallen down sometimes in anger or outrage, sometimes in judgment and sometimes in envy.Yom Kippur is not about beating ourselves up, staying down, feeling sad, somber or guilty.
Consider what went wrong, why it went wrong, and use that knowledge to learn from it, to gain lift, to take flight and to ensure it doesnt happen again. We dont need to sell that many books or build a revolutionary company to achieve success in our lives. All we need is to get up after we have fallen and take flight.
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Why Bats Sleep Upside Down and The Secret of Yom Kippur - aish.com - Aish.com
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