When you are the lone survivor of a tragedy, how does it shape your life and how do you move on? Watch Insight's episode, Lone Survivor, on SBS on Tuesday, October 25 at 8:30pm or later on SBS On Demand here.
For a long time, I did not cope very well at all, Beau Wise told Insight SBS.
I dealt with everything in the wrong way. I shut out my family, really Marines were about the only people I could talk to, or my brothers guys, the Green Berets or the SEALS, and those were the guys I wanted to connect with.
And I shut my wife out, I shut my sister [out], my parents and you know, anything that made me connect on an emotional level, I was not having it.
Beau suffered from what is known as survivors guilt. His two older brothers, Jeremy and Ben, were killed in Afghanistan Jeremy a Navy SEAL and Ben a Green Beret.
Beau also served in Afghanistan in the Marine Corps. He was the only brother to return home.
Beau Wise at the graves of his two brothers
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Id play all the scenarios of why me? And it revolves around why the fathers at the time, Jeremy and Ben, were killed, he said.
I didnt have children and they did and so thats one of those things in my head that Ive wrestled with why did the fathers leave?
At one point in time I didnt want to admit that I had survivors guilt I think if I confessed that I did have it, it would have meant that I would have to talk to someone and that was the last thing I wanted to do, in the wake of the catastrophic events.
Professor Richard Bryant is a clinical psychologist based at the University of NSW. He specialises in trauma. He explained toInsight that survivors guilt can be caused when our views of the world are challenged.
Probably the main reason is that what underpins survivor guilt is that we do often have a sense that the world is just or its fair, and the fact that I have survived and somebody else hasnt, challenges that, he said.
In fact, life is not fair - many, many traumas happen totally randomly or the person who does survive has actually had no control over the events that led to other people dying.
The Wise brothers. From left to right - Jeremy, Ben, and Beau.
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However, Professor Bryant explained that survivors guilt doesnt affect everyone.
it varies, there's not one kind of guilt, everybody has a different experience so the sort of guilt that people might have, it might not exist at all, or it can be very, very strong.
Annette Herfkens was the lone survivor of a 1992 plane crash in Vietnam that killed 30 other people, including her fianc Willem Pasje van de Pas.
"It was very lonely I'd have to say being a lone survivor, especially from an aeroplane crash, because it's a very small club.... " she told Insight's Kumi Taguchi.
She said she felt a great sadness and grief after the death of Pasje, but said there was almost an expectation for her to feel survivor's guilt. Those feelings never came.
Annette Herfkens meeting one of her rescuers when she returned to Vietnam.
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"I got so much attention from the press and from everyone, that [survivor's guilt] was almost put on me, she said.
I dont necessarily think I got the better part of the deal because he [Pasje] went to a beautiful place and I had to face life alone.
"Everyone was very much focusing on the way that I had survived and how Pasje had died, but for me I was not focusing on that at all.
I was just an average widow, like so many widows in the world, and I'm sure I felt just what they felt.
I felt bitter, went through all the stages of grieving - anger, it was bitter grief.
I mean my future, I lost my future and that was basically the only thing that counted, was getting on without him."
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